Friday, March 25, 2011

Divine Appointment

A divine appointment is ‘a meeting’ which was inspired and God led.

 So many times in life I ask the question I am sure many of us ask ourselves, " When is God going to use me? When is my life going to mean anything." And then when he does use us we get mad cause it wasn't MY timing. God's timing is NOT our timing. I know this, but don't know it when I am in the midst of my situation.

 I have been in NY these past several weeks to make the time pass until hubby returns home. When booking this trip, I had VERY selfish intentions in mind. This trip was going to be for ME. Not that being a little selfish is a bad thing sometimes. Little did I know, God had soooo many other plans for me in store. As soon as I got off the plane it was very apparent I wasn't here for me. I was NOT happy about it.
 Different situations and crisis would have played out very differently, had I not been here.  Several people said to me, " This would not have happened like this if you weren't here. " "You know it was God that had you be here at this time." I text my husband halfway through the trip saying " I feel like I have been working since I have been here." I still wasn't getting it. As my trip is coming to an end, I realize that I was here for other people and not me, and if God saved a life through me{ literally}. I'm ok with that, and I need to get over myself.

 I am not patting myself on the back. I say this to encourage everyone, that no matter where you are, God has a divine appointment for you. You don't have to be some mega church evangelist to be useful. I simply thought I was doing what every person would do. No. Not every person can do what you do. You are fearfully and wonderfully made with a specific purpose. You are a unique child of God.:) Seize your divine appointment and run with it :).

Sunday, March 6, 2011


Addiction : the state of being enslaved to a habit or practice or to something that is psychologically or physically habit-forming, as narcotics, to such an extent that its cessation causes severe trauma.
I couldn't have said it better myself. The definition of addiction is self explanatory, but what it doesn't say is the trauma the people who are around the addict experience. (i.e. family and close friends) The guilt the family feels for not doing enough to prevent the consequences. The time and emotion that is drained from the individual trying to help and reason with the addict. It is hard process for the addict and those who love him. What I have come to realize, both working with and having addicts in my family, is you can't feel guilty. Whether they are addicted to drugs, alcohol, food, love. etc., it will suck the life out of you. Nothing will ever be good enough and they will always want more. So the question is , when is it enough. Every situation is different and an assessment of the situation is needed accordingly on a case by case basis. In the end you can bring a horse to water, but you can't make it drink. You have control only over your actions, not the addicts. Boundaries have to be set. If you do not set boundaries you are at risk for becoming an addict to the addict. You can become addicted to making them better. Tough love is the best sometimes and a lot of it. Doing your best and then letting go. Letting go emotionally is probably the hardest thing anyone will ever have to do, but in the long run, it's the best thing. 
 No one  chooses to be born to, marry, or love someone who is an addict. You do have a choice on the action you take to protect yourself from becoming an addict yourself. In the end it's the addicts choice to live, or die.